.interview with Amelie after viviRP goes home.

Q. Funny game today, having lost the first and raced through the second and third. How would you rate the performance?
AMÉLIE MAURESMO: Definitely good in the second and third and really a little bit tight in terms of movement at the beginning ‑‑ I mean, the whole first set. I wasn't really knowing how the leg would react and everything, so I was probably a little bit scared and some tension on that ‑‑ most part of the first set.
But after it was much better, and I thought also conditions were not so easy because it was pretty windy for some time, quite some time, in the beginning. Yeah, and much better on the serve and the movement, also, overall from the back and at the net, so it was good.
Q. Injury‑wise how are you feeling?
AMÉLIE MAURESMO: Yeah, a little bit the same after my last match, so it's not perfect, but obviously I still kept the ball moving around. So it's good.
Q. Next is Serena. You've been a couple times here. Your thoughts on that? Obviously a tough third‑round match?
AMÉLIE MAURESMO: Tough, definitely. I haven't seen her play yet here, but I basically know her game pretty well and what she's going to do and what to expect. Yeah, I hope I'll be ready in a couple days for this match.
Q. And if you do get the better of her, do you think you're a contender as a former champion?
AMÉLIE MAURESMO: We'll see. We'll see how physically it goes, also, and if I can get through the next one. We'll talk about it after maybe.
Q. What is the key to beating Serena do you think?
AMÉLIE MAURESMO: Probably serve is very important because she serves very well. Yeah, I think probably that's the first big key for this kind of match.

Allez my girlfriend!

.anyway...

It's 1:22 in the morning. Naz and I are up, watching Amelie Mauresmo battle Virginia (Vagina to me and Naz) Ruano Pascual. She's won (4-6, 6-1, 6-1), bringing up her ranking and moving into the third round, which is more than I can say for her Roland Garros performance. All the while, looking great in her white Wimbledon outfit. I'm waiting for the Wimbledon people to upload the pictures so I can post them here so you guys can bask in the beauty that is Amelie.

-of my dear daughter, and being a wannabe..

yes. she calls me her momma.

and she hates a girl by the name of.. well let's just not name her.
let's call her..DramaQueenC.
Yes, to those who knows ;)
hint : *hands on chest-dramatic manner* saya akan menyatakan hal ini kerana tidak mahu membodek sesiapa di bilik ini.
(or a little somethin' like that :P)

Yes, we all know, Stephanie ;)
Well, voting happened and my dear daughter was backstabbed.
I shall keep this a mystery till she decides to unfold it. Her story to tell, anyway.

To those who know, yes it's me blogging. She decided to give me the honour (or maybe, I grabbed it from her *frowns*..whichever you choose. lol) to write some stuff here since she's out of ideas (what bullcrap) and doesn't know what to write (even bigger bullcrap). So here I am, to write some stuff (yes, daug, I remember I have to write about Amelie...albeit not really knowing her/liking her; wait- I don't watch female tennis till she FORCED me to. Wimbledon. woohoo!) regarding some things at some time in some places.

Hah.

SO.
About this girl born on the 15th June, 1992, who LOVES (as in, the type of heterosexual love...but changed to some twisted sorta heterosexual love.*frowns at statement*) Amelie Mauresmo, who is a prefect in her school, who loves punk rock, emo rock (well. isn't she?),bullshit-Borat-jokes, who loves giving weird names to people she loves (and gladly, I didn't get any of 'em), and (secretly) pop music.

Wait- was I supposed to state that out?
Oh well.

She's one of my biggest love of my life. From day 1 knowing her, till now- she's always the one that I somehow have a soft spot on (next to one of her bestfriends, you know who you are). Knowing her'd changed my life - due to her sortakinda dependence on me, I became more dependent on God for strength.

And patience.
Oh God, only He knows how she tests mine most of the time.

And because of her, I learnt how to really love one without any judgement. She, due to how things happen to her, was once an unlovable sight to those who see her (ouch, yes.)- yes, mine included; but in time, how she blossomed! No, Steph- you're not a flower and no funny comments, please :P.

She says that she's MY wannabe.
Innit wonderful? ;)

Those who really know her would see the changes in her. And because of them, I'm just so proud of her- wait; I AM proud of her ALL THE TIME. But she never fails to make me smile when I see her overcome certain issues in life; which she bravely walk through with of course, help from her friends, and God.

I see once, a God-independent person, to a more God-dependent person.
I see a future leader (that doesn't lead the crowd) who leads people individually.
I see a wonderful woman in the making ;)

Oh, speaking of how she tests my patience- she still does. But at least she knows it now when someone's serious (oh man, think form 1 days. grr.). And she now means what she says (: especially when she says that she loves someone . If you'd know her, you know she's not some softie-lovey-dovey chick.

And she's currently dreaming of going to France with me to meet with the love of HER life, a woman born on the 5th July, who's a women's tennis player, whose ranking I don't know due to Stephanie's ignorance towards my IM on MSN (don't call me a failure Momma- I tried asking!) she FINALLY replied; it's 21st worldwide, who is dating another woman (yes Steph, we'll burn her kitchen and her house down in your very futile attempt to win her heart..did I say futile?), who is muscular and TALL (six feet-ish. whoaaa mamaaa), and to her, beautiful.

Spreading the gospel of Amelie Mauresmo-ism, she's being a very faithful (and adamant) girl in stating and professing the love for Amelie openly eventhough she receives a lot of negative responses in return. Amazing.

Well, that's my wunnnerfull(but peculiar) daughter for you.
Oh did I state that we're going to kick some humanbitchwhoreass teacher's butt? Well, um. I have to be nice. I'm her Momma, anyway :P

And Steph, regardless of whatever happens, don't change.
If you do, I still love you anyway.

Love,
Momma.

.long overdue birthday post.

Happy 5th birthday, Ms Amy Chin. (9.06)

Happy 80th birthday, Mommy. (11.06)

Happy 41st birthday, Ben. (17.06)

.wimbledon pix.

It's 6:18 AM now. Stayed up until 3something with Naz just to watch this:

So. Amelie looks HOT, no surprises. Gotta love this woman. Bye-bye, Ashley Harkleroad. In straight sets: 6 - 4, 6 - 3 is SOMETHING, y'know...

Off to school. Laterz.

.amelia's tag.

1. FIVE NAMES IN YOUR INBOX CELLPHONE?
Helen, Daphne, Nick, Carin, Bunwoman.



2. YOUR MAIN RING TONE?
The chorus of Nelly Furtado ft. Juanes - Te Busque.



3. WHAT YOU DID AT 12 LAST NIGHT?
Was out, but texting Helen.



4. WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON YOU WENT OUT WITH?
Carmen and Mel KF.



5. THE COLOR OF THE T-SHIRT YOU'RE WEARING?
Baby blue.



6. THE LAST THING YOU DID?
Download the tabs to She's So High by Tal Bachman.



7. 1 OF YOUR EVERYDAY FAVORITE ITEMS?
My phone.



8. THE COLOR OF YOUR BEDROOM?
Red, black and white themed.



9. HOW MUCH MONEY IN YOUR WALLET NOW?
RM72.90



10. HOW'S LIFE?
Sucks. School starts on Monday.



11. YOUR FAVORITE CITY?
Anywhere Amelie is.



12. WHAT WILL YOU DO NEXT WEEKEND?
Do I look psychic to you?



13. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU SAW YOUR MOM?
Two seconds ago.



14. WHERE IS SHE NOW?
Watching telenovelas on TV.



15. WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU TALKED TO YOUR PARENTS?
This morning?



16. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON THAT TEXTED YOU?
Helen. We discussed the potential hookup of Amelie and Angie.



17. WHERE DID YOU HAVE YOUR DINNER LAST NIGHT?
Uh. At Carmen's?



18. THE LAST SURPRISE YOU GOT?
No surprise, but my birthday's coming up...



19. LAST THING YOU BORROWED FROM YOUR FRIENDS?
One of Eva's Fedoras. You're not getting it back, babe.



I tag: Aisyah. Pik Ee. Amanda.

Hot 10 WOC...

Anyway, Leann, Carmen and I drafted a list of the top-10 hottest women of color (African, Indian, Hispanic, Chinese, etc) . We just HAD to do this, okay, cause everyone needs to know what's what. So, here goes... By the way, comment/tag to let us know of we missed anyone and we'll work it in somehow.

10. Mz Fontaine.

9. Natasha Kai. Would you just LOOK at those abs? *drools*

8. Padma Lakshmi.

7. Gong Li

6. Leona Lewis.

5. Aishwarya Rai.

4. Lynn Chen.

3. Rose Rollins.

2. America Ferrera.

1. Michelle Rodriguez.

--I never lied, it's time you started listening.

I've always been there. I know you trusted me, and felt like I never trusted you. Maybe I never did. Who really knows? I don't want to put the whole blame on you. Maybe it's not all your fault. Maybe everything that happened is just another thing to blame on me?
I'm growing up. I'm growing distant. Why can't you just accept that? If I knew everything would turn out like this, I would have never wasted those endless hours spent talking to you on the phone, making you smile, hearing your laugh. Things are different now.
I never had a reason to deceive you. With you, I was always myself. You never listened to me, it was always ME listening to YOU. When you talked to me, I knew you needed me. But I don't know if I need you. You're weighing me down.
Your jealousy scares me. I'm confused. Maybe I wanted you at first, but now - you're nothing to me. You don't own me; you're not my boyfriend, my girlfriend, not my family, no more even my friend. I should be able to do what I want.
I know you trusted me, maybe more than anyone. Just so you know, I've never betrayed your trust. I kept your secrets and I was always as straightforward as I could be with you. Now, as I look back on what we had, I see that to me, it wasn't even a friendship.
I'm not sure what I want from you. You're never completely there, now. I don't even know if you were there to begin with. You expect me to solve your problems like I'm a gift from the gods. I'm not like that, and you should know it.
When I sit here, contemplating what we were, you never knew how to draw the lines. Please know and understand that those words I told you the other night are the line that I'm drawing between us. I can't go on like this.
It's not like I'm severing ties with you completely. We can still be civil, if you want. If you want. There are so many times I've told you those words, if you want. When I wanted you, I did everything I could to make you happy. But guess what? I don't want you now.
We have different things to consider. You'll never understand me; you've never even tried. If you were stupid, I was a thousand times more so to put up with you. You don't even care, and now? It's just not my problem, and I have nothing more to say.

"Never miss anyone from your past, there's a reason they didn't make it to your future."

.follow.

Follow,
Your heart and see where it might take you,
Don't let the world outside there break you,
They know not who you are inside,
They have never felt your hell,
Don't ever let them crack.
Hold out,
I know you feel it getting cold out,
Without the blanket for your soul now,
Before you know it you'll be frozen,
You have to see this through,
There's no one here but you.
I feel the rain coming down,
It reminds me of who I used to be,
But now that's nothing more,
Then a memory.
Don't go,
To sleep and cry because tomorrow,
If you let it, it will swallow,
You up and none of this will matter,
Will matter anymore.
I feel the rain coming down,
It reminds me of who I used to be,
But now that's nothing more,
Than a memory.
I feel the rain coming down,
It reminds me of who I used to be,
But now that's nothing more,
Than a memory.
Follow,
Your heart and see where it might take you,
Don't let the world outside there break you,
They know not who you are inside,
They have never felt your hell,
Don't ever let them crack,
Your shell...

I'm holding on. Still, though everything that's happened. I'm not the person I used to be four years ago. Steph is finally, finally growing up. I'm becoming stronger.